Sex ...

... is what sells music these days, wouldn't you agree? When I have the chance, my preference is to channel hop through the myriad of music channels that we get on Sky. There must be 30 or so at least. I tend to channel hop through until I find something I like. Anyway, sex selling music ... have you noticed the prevalence these days for videos with very scantily clad girls gyrating like it's going out of fashion? Obviously these videos are aimed at men, not women, but whilst some of them are actually worth watching, so many of them aren't.

I've got nothing against any of these videos at all, but I'm finding more and more that they are giving me an inferiority complex! Videos like Fedde le Grand and Camille Jones, for The Creep. Girls with amazing bodies dancing ... and that video for that dance song that I think is called Destination Calabria.

Now I know I'm no spring chicken - 4o is knocking at my door and I know I'm well past my prime, but it makes me feel so bad to watch these videos and know that I never ever had a chance of looking anything like that. I know that each and every scar, stretchmark or roll of fat is evidence of my journey through life, and that I should be proud of my body, but I'm not. I look in the mirror and all I see is fat, fat, fat, which doesn't seem to be diminishing no matter how hard I try. It's hard to feel pretty or have self-confidence when you have girls in videos to compare yourself unfavourably against. I'm beginning to despair.

I'm suffering from a hot case of PMT, which no doubt is making me feel worse today, but surely I can't be the only one who feels like this??