Pissed Off Palpitations

I have been feeling really weird today. Sort of weak and headachey, and I've been having palpitations tonight. I'm not sure whether I might be coming down with something, or whether my new meds are to blame. My GP put me on Simvastatin, which is basically a cholesterol-lowering agent. It's not that I have high cholesterol, just that the current belief amongst medics here is that putting diabetics on statins helps to protect against heart disease in the future. I suspect very much that my feeling ill is down to the tablets rather than anything else, judging by the side-effects the information leaflet says may be experienced. Mum has just been telling me that Dad had Simvastatin and he couldn't take them because of the side-effects, so it looks as though I may have to go back and ask for a different one. I shall take it tonight though and see how I feel tomorrow.

As for being pissed off, well just for a change, Colin has annoyed me profusely again! He promises time and again to discuss with me any major purchases that he wants to make (I always tell him when I'm going to buy anything over £20 or so, purely as a courtesy), but yet again he has just gone ahead and done his own thing. I am so pissed off with him, particularly as we are at loggerheads at the moment anyway. He is being a real pain about me wanting to spend time with my friends. He doesn't understand that I need to spend time with other people and just be 'Kate', and not 'Mummy' or 'the other half'. Half of the problem, I suspect, is that a couple of my very close friends are male, and he is jealous, though I don't know why. It's not a nice feeling to know that he doesn't trust me (I have been accused of having an affair with one of my friends, though I don't quite know when this is supposed to be happening as I am always either at work or at home with the kids while Col is working).

The thing is, I love ALL my friends, male and female. They are all very special people in my life, and if he's going to start throwing a strop every time I mention one of them, or text them or get a text or call from them, then there is going to be trouble. I personally would have no problem with Colin having female friends that he socialised with or went out with, because I have the utmost trust in him, so I don't know what his problem is or why he doesn't extend me the same courtesy. If he doesn't know by now that I am an extremely loyal Cancerian and cheating isn't something that I would do, then he must be a bit stupid (this is the point where we all look skywards and whistle ...)

Anyway, although I could have gone ballistic about his major purchase, what he's bought will hopefully extend his social circle a bit and then maybe he will get off my back and leave me to enjoy the company of my friends ... so I bit my tongue.

(For what it's worth, my social calendar this year has seen me go out on someone's leaving do from work; a trip into town to take pictures for our conference brochure, and then our evening Dinner on the day of the conference; and then I've had dinner at friend's houses four times; so please don't get the impression that I'm out every night, as nothing could be further from the truth).

Okay, rant over. I should really have done some scrapping tonight, but what with feeling under the weather I have allowed myself to procrastinate somewhat, and so now I'm going off to bed to hopefully get a good night's sleep.