A Positive Outlook (Almost ...)

I started today feeling positive and motivated. After a good night's sleep it was easy to get up and get myself ready for work. I have had an extremely productive day, getting loads and loads of clinic letters out of the way, plus sorted out the waiting list, some admin tasks that Si had left me, got the cheques ready for banking, AND had time for coffee and a chinwag with Ioannis. Of course, it helps that I've booked a few days leave and now don't have to go to work until Tuesday. As someone that much prefers to be at work than at home (I know I'm bad, but I really love my job, and I hate the feeling here at home of never being able to get on top of all the housework and stuff), I'm really looking forward to a bit of Me time. However, Ethan is off school tomorrow as his school is being used as a polling station, so tomorrow will be spent with my little man; but Friday ... Friday is mine! I haven't got any plans yet, but I might trundle off and do a spot of window-shopping - the shoe shop down in Acocks Green have some pseudo-Crocs, and they're only £6.99, so I might go and treat myself to a pair. The only problem is which colour should I choose! I love my pink Crocs so much ... but I think I might play it safe and go for black. Or maybe I'll live dangerously and go for yellow!

Anyway, on the way home tonight it was such a lovely, bright and sunny day that I thought a spot of spontaneity was in order. I can't believe I did this, but I decided a spot of topless sunbathing was in order ... so as soon as I got home I stripped off and went and sat outside to catch some rays. It's okay though, I made sure where I was sitting I wasn't in anyone's view (I didn't want to scare the neighbours!); but nevertheless I have been royally told off by Ethan, who says I am a very naughty Mummy for being outside with no shirt on. Bless him, though, cos he stripped his shirt off and joined me out there for a while. Okay so maybe it wasn't the best idea I've had for a long time, but it was very liberating, and it was good to be spontaneous for once without worrying about what other people might think or say.

All in all, a positive kinda day ... that is, unless you count the photos that Ethan took of me this afternoon. Yep, I'd taken the camera outside to get some pics of him running around the garden, and he decided that he wanted to take some pics of me too. Put it this way, flattering they aint. They really make me despair that I am ever going to look 'normal', whatever that is. I have been trying so hard, but I just don't have much in the way of willpower, and I'm just not getting anywhere. It brings me down no end. It makes me wonder why on earth anyone would want a fat old hag like me ... but that's another story borne of my insecurities and past experiences ... and I'm still working on my 'glass half full' persona, so I'm not going to pander to anything that isn't a positive thought ... Anyway, you're getting a picture of the Ethmeister (actually not a particularly sharp one, I see, now that I've uploaded it), cos you really DON'T want one of the ones of me!

A BIG plus today though - Colin's IT guy has managed to read the info on my hard drive and it's looking promising that an almost full recovery will be achieved. That's a real relief, bearing in mind that the drive contains the results of many many hours of toil, on layouts, writing etc etc. Colin is going to order a new drive (the IT guy says the hard drive log shows that it is faulty), and so hopefully I might be back to normal computer-wise in the next few days. I certainly hope so!