Frustration

Just got home from the cinema - I took Ethan to see Bolt. He absolutely loved it. I, on the other hand, wasn't overly impressed.

So I logged onto my email and there was a reply from Hornchurch about Nell. They confirm that the likelihood is that Nell is buried in a pauper's grave. How awful. I can't believe that they would bury her in a pauper's grave - after all, Thomas was supposed to be a Butler/footman/coachdriver or something similar - surely he could've afforded to bury her properly? But as Mum says, we don't know what their circumstances were at the time. They would also have had three other small children, the youngest of whom would have been about 5 I think. I don't know, but it is very sad.

Mum pointed out that it might just simply be a case that the grave number wasn't recorded. It doesn't necessarily mean that she doesn't have a proper grave. Hopefully I'll be able to go and have a look around the churchyard some time and see if I can find anything. Given that at Tottenham all the graves seem to be clustered by year, maybe if I can find where their 1903 graves start I can work backwards into 1902 - she was buried in mid-December. I hope so anyway.

Then, a revelation. Mum said how she was a very pretty girl looking at her painting. I said, what painting? You mean her drawing, surely? Now one thing that really pisses me off about my Mum is that she is really good at insisting that she has told me things that she hasn't. So it seems that this time she forgot to tell me (though she says she did) that that drawing isn't supposed to be of Nell. But ... she has an oil painting which IS supposed to be Nell's self-portrait. Great, says I, photograph it for me (cos I really had no idea that it existed) ... but she has refused, because she says it's too big/it's too dark/she'd have to charge her camera up/excuses excuses. I am really cross now, I want to see it, and you'd think that she'd understand that. But apparently not. Apparently I have to wait until I go down to London again to see it. But that won't be for months! Aaarrrggghhh!!!!! Why does she have to be so damned awkward?